whining
why live with low abstract reasoning and low pattern recognition? Its like being stuck in an invisible cage. Plus stacked on top with cptsd it makes it very bad. GAI is of uttermost importance and when it’s lowish life’s fucked. No person can save me from it, no matter how good I feel in the moment, it all comes back to the old ways. Plus intelligent ppl dont want much to talk to me(and ppl in general) cz I have low empathy and I can’t put myself in someone elses shoes correctly and have inadequate morals as judging what’s fair and whats not depends on my reasoning ability, which is quite low. I just don’t see nuance in things. It is just pointless suffering, I don’t know what I don’t know, and that makes me paralyzed, endless doubts about the fact that I have read some ideas that I deem very intelligent when in fact it could be just another psyop or actually good idea but interpreted or applied incorrectly by me, and I have no alternative but to trust judjement of others more than mine, as my judgment lead me to suffering too often. I’m 19 and I already feel like life is over for me, and I had this feeling for a really long time, now I just know the cause. What shall I do?