Not sure what to do
So, I am kind of disappointed in my myself today because I drank 2 Busch apple tall boys yesterday and I was 30 days sober. I feel clueless as whether in disappointed because of the extremely destructive gambling addiction it caused and I am 32 days gambling free from or because of guilt. I also am 32 days nicotine free which I'm proud of and alcohol always makes me crave that (not really much gambling anymore but it makes me think about the what ifs). I have an addictive personality and I don't want to ruin my life but I feel so pressured to just have a couple in the back of my mind on the weekends when I'm gaming with my friends, I used to have lots of drinks every weekend gaming out with my buddies so it triggers intense cravings and I gave in yesterday (it was a sorta fun time, didn't crave gambling but really craved nicotine and didn't give in). Not sure if I should quit alcohol forever and find alternatives or drink again tonight and not feel good tomorrow. It does help cure boredom and calm my anxiety as well which scares me.