Failed and exam and i feel weird about it
I (23 F), just got my results on our review and comprehension exam. I passed all the other subjects but failed this specific one. What's worse was that i was short by only 2 points.
Not gonna lie, at first i felt sick to my stomach. Suddenly all the studying that i did flashed right before my eyes. Thinking about the money that i spent on the coffee and the review hub i attented, where i felt like it all went to waste as i wanted to only take this exam once. Another thing that I felt was shame. How was it that other people were able to pass this subject but not me. I criticized myself and my abilities, even thinking that maybe i am stupid.
But what made it weird was that, after a while, when i went outside to attend to my errands, i suddenly felt free. The disappointment that i felt went away, and thoughts about "i think i can do better on my retake." and "nahh im actually goated bro, me failing this one exam doesn't actually define me lol."
I feel weird. For some reason it doesn't feel right to be this optimistic about it. But at the same time i feel calm and now i want to study. Am i being a narcissist? Why was it so easy for me to move forward and not get stuck with this mistake of mine. Is this normal?