(for context, I'm a closeted trans man irl and I'm a somewhat canon divergent Sebastian solace Kin who is also transmasc in that sense. I don't mind doubles- I love y'all actually)

I can't quite explain why it bothers me so much. It bothers me even more than when people use she/her for me in real life, maybe because I see my actual, human physical self as more of a costume some sort of unidentifiable monster or one of my kintypes (fictkins, dragon, Secretary bird, eel, robot, kirin) or because I'm closeted irl but online I'm very open about being trans, or maybe because I've only recently discovered I'm trans.

This person headcanons me as being transfem and uses she/her for me in content that involves me. Which I found very jarring considering a lot of my fandom tends to headcanon me as transmasc.

I wish I wasn't so bothered by this, considering there's not much other new pressure content on YouTube. And this person seems to have this headcanon because of their partner, who kins Sebastian. (As in relating to the character rather then also being fictionkin I think?) And it just makes me feel guilty for being uncomfortable with it because I think that's sweet. Especially because my partner Gabriel- yea he's also Gabriel ultrakill, influences how I view Canon Gabriel personally.

Disclaimer- I'm not transgynophobic- please don't get that idea! I just don't like being misgendered, and I feel stuck about it, because there's not much other new pressure content on YouTube (although I guess I have tiktok but I'm not very active there? And tumblr isn't much of a video platform) and I don't want to be rude to this creator.

I'd like to be clear I don't hate transfems but this just makes me feel like I'm being misgendered (plus I feel like transmascs and nonbinary people are underrepresented in trans conversations but thats a different conversation)