u/Leftshoedrop

Today I want to talk about how devastatingly isolating this illness is. Aside from the fact that it robs you of your ability to work, enjoy hobbies, etc. one of the most devastating thing is that it also robs of my energy to stay connected to people.

Touch deprivation is a thing and I cannot remember the last time that I had a meaningful hug that came from somebody I felt connected to. And quite frankly, I think that is bringing down my overall health as fast and as much as ME.

The whole thing SUCKS.

Hi All. I've been watching my life crash and burn around me as I can barely do anything outside my home, which includes working full time. So it's been me, my bed, and lots and lots of shows. It's how I've been coping through life & medications that often have gnarly side effects.

I'm so isolated since talking to people is just exhausting now, so I find myself gravitating towards shows that have a lot of warmth and tenderness. I noticed even scenes where people hold hands is very moving. Why? I haven't actually had skin contact with another human in any shape or form in..... I don't even know.

In the past I would work hard to ground myself back to reality. But now? I just let my mind go. This reality is just too cruel for me to be a part of for too long.