Is there a sort of equivalent to all state in college?
You know how the sort of “ultimate goal” in a highschoolers career is to make all state. (Idk maybe it’s just cuz I’m in a very competitive texas 6A area, but that’s the vibe we have here)
This past season after coming back from DCI and marching band with a trio part and solo with very high self esteem, I was all like “oh this is it, I’m gonna prove myself to everybody and make allstate” and got the etudes to a very high level.
I did really good on round one but just had the worst chop day of my life day 2 and barely even could play my etudes to the end. I was completely devastated. I had improved so much from last year and I didnt even make area this time around.
I’m about to graduate and go to college as a music major. I know that it’s just highschool and in 6 months it probably won’t even matter to me anymore, but the feeling of my highschool career being a complete failure still lingers. I want to be a great musician and I couldn’t even make all state.
Anyways. Will there ever be a chance to really “prove myself” like that again in college/ the real world? How do I move on? I know I’m being a bit ridiculous and I hate that I even care about this, but I can’t really help it.