Hi I am 25M. I got introduced to HIMYM back in 2019 by my junior in college. I got hooked and watched the entire season in one day. In similar time I used to have a huge crush on a girl I met on Instagram. She was friend of friend. We talked a lot. I literally thought her as robin. We had a spark initially but like a classic ted I rushed into things and I said “I love you” on my birthday. She chuckled and a little surprised like robin. She didn’t say anything but I was/am still (in some ways) stuck to her.
I started daydreaming, imagining her as my girlfriend, later purposing her with blue french horn. She was like the motivation I had to pursue my career and later I became successful in my field.
I wish her happy birthday every year. I tried to stay in touch with her making sure I know about her.
I knew she wasn’t into me and it’s clearly one sided but the ted inside me wanted to still love her even though she doesn’t care.
Later she got engaged with someone else. This literally broke my heart I couldn’t stop thinking about her. All the dreams I was having.. she is living those dreams with someone else.
I decided to move on and started dating last year. I met someone who was completely crazy about me. She was nice. She wanted to write a book on me. (I don’t know why she said that to me). It went well for 2 months unless the “robin’s” engagement broke off..
My friend called me at midnight. The moment he said that I was kinda happy (I shouldn’t have) and again all the hopes were alive. Sun is shining and I was back in the loop.
I broke up with my girlfriend the same week and went back to my robin but guess what??
She still doesn’t care. We talked about this again and even though she knows how much crazy I am about her she doesn’t feel the same. I respect that.
The fact that I can’t stop loving her and I am keeping coming back to her is quite annoying.
It’s been 6 years and part of me still love her..
I don’t want to wait for next 15 years like ted did.
I don’t know whether there’s tracy exists in my world or not.
But my robin is already gone I can’t do anything.
I have everything I wished when I was in college but I lost her..
Now I can’t date anyone because I always see her face in every girl. I am worried I am going to end up alone.