Crying and praying
My schools’ department has made a decision to not enroll me in this semester because of the reason I have extension duties (absences) which is due to my work. I can pay for my absences which they require but they are insisting I cannot pay for it given also my balance in my record. I only have one year to finish my school and to graduate so that I can leave this country and work abroad as a nurse. I am planning to kill myself right now in my dorm. I cannot bear to stomach the anxiety, the pain, the disappointment I am feeling all those work, those sleepless nights just to pay for my allowances and clinicals. Where will I find 3000$ for my tuition fee to transfer schools. I have lost all hope. I am such a failure. I feel so hopeless, I am my siblings hope but how come this happen, what is gods plan for me for this to happen? How can I do this? How can I move forward? I am thinking of stabbing myself multiple times till I die of blood loss. I hate myself. I hate my life. Please help pray for me that I can find a way that everything will be better. I am so tired.