kundalini stuck in certain places
A few months ago I listened to a kundalini activation frequency and something started to rise from the bottom of my spine but it stopped at somewhere between my heart and throat. I worked on my throat chakra for a while and it helped me during my singing lessons at the theater. Before that, my voice would get stuck in my throat.
A few weeks ago my kundalini started to rise from the bottom of my spine again. This time, I had done nothing. Still, it was stuck around my heart. Since then, I don't sleep much. I don't need to, so I don't force myself into it. But I don't really take action towards the things I want to have, though I have all the time to myself. (I don't have a job. I feel guilty. But when I try to start something that is even easy, I feel overwhelming anxiety. I don't even do the things I enjoy doing once I turn them into a responsibility.)
For at least two weeks, I've worked on kundalini yoga. Basically the videos on YouTube. I realized a few things about my body:
- My right leg is either numb or starts to shake during the sessions.
- Something is different on my right hand. I cannot make my thumb and and index finger meet as easily as my left one. Something is off.
- Something gradually started to move from my heart point to my left shoulder.
- When I release tension in my throat, something is moving on my hard palette.
- When I try to visualize during meditation, my right side is dark. I cannot easily have a light image of it. Also, I have difficulty in visualizing root and solar plexus chakras.
I am curious about the reason. Do any of you know how to evaluate this situation or do something about this?
Thanks for reading so far.