Why existing?
I sometimes wonder… what's the point of learning all these things just to be dead in the end? We don't know why we exist in the first place..so why participate in this game of survival?
Nothing feels like home. Even when I learn something I love, I sometimes think, What am I going to do with this? Nobody cares about my knowledge. People judge you based on how much you earn. Nobody respects a person simply for having an interest in learning. People respect those who earn more, regardless of whether they have virtues or vices. The ones with vices are leading the world and they are winning.. while the virtuous ones seem to suffer the most..Even if a virtuous person is happy with their choices and is willing to accept suffering, why should they face adverse consequences for doing right?
Tell me, why do we exist?
I used to think that sages knew the reason for existence, but perhaps even they didn't... Philosophical and spiritual texts often focus on ideas such as the impermanence of everything and the importance of respecting even the smallest living being.. But why is that being here in the first place?
I know that when I touch something, I don't literally have the classical kind of contact... at the microscopic level, electromagnetic interactions between the electron clouds of atoms prevent the atoms in my body and the atoms in the other object from simply passing through each other. But why is matter structured in such a complex way in the first place?
Nobody knows why?...
Why should I build a home when I know that, someday...my body will decompose and its atoms will return to the environment into the soil, atmosphere, water and etc .. eventually become part of other living things..
We don't even fully understand why the universe contains more matter than antimatter. Somehow, the early universe ended up with a tiny excess of matter over antimatter..otherwise, universe would've annihilated the moment it was created .. today we know the Sakharov conditions required for generating a matter and antimatter asymmetry...but we still don't know exactly what physical mechanism produced the observed asymmetry..
Still… why?
Suffering lies in the gap between how things are and how it should've (according to our expectations) .. But why do we expect anything at all? Why does a collection of particles(humans) have expectations? What is the “I” that is expecting something? And why do I expect to receive something that was never inherently mine?..
Nobody knows why..
Just knows...Atoms in your body existed before you and after you, those atoms will continue participating in other chemical systems. But the 'you' keeps on changing