Does this sound stupid?
I recently quit vaping cold turkey and decided to get real. However the cravings are kicking my ass at only day 2/3. I’ve done my best to ignore it but knowing me, if my annoyance and anxiety gets worse, I’ll probably cave and go buy one. No one in my family knows I vape since it’s seen as bad/taboo. So I’ve decided in order to make sure I don’t go back on vaping that I’ll help my cravings this way. PS: I don’t plan on this being long term, just a few days but please let me know if this is useless or worse.
I work 4 days a week sometimes 5 and it’s a stressful job (healthcare) so this couldnt be the worse time for me to be quitting but it needs to be done. I decided to buy some cigs to smoke after work. I hate cigarettes so much it’s funny that i was a vaper but i decided to smoke one cig after work to curb that absolute insane cravings and anxiety I get. The reason I say one is because i genuinely can’t stand the smell and it’s solely for the hand to mouth motion and the smoke which is what I crave more than the nicotine. I don’t want any gum because I know I’ll abuse it.
I hate the smell which is why I’ve decided on after work, I also know that if I came home smelling like cigs that I’d get into such a huge mess with my family, so this will help with putting a stop to them once I’ve had enough. I can’t smoke cigs at home, it’s literally impossible so I won’t be smoking on the weekends and I won’t be relying on it and I can’t smoke them unless I’m done work because for some reason I have some sort of shame about smelling like them but no shame vaping up and down which is so ridiculous.
Basically I’m using my insecurity, known laziness and lowkey fear of being a disappointment to curb this all, which in any case isn’t GREAT, but it’s something. No I will not be nicotine free fully, but it’ll be a whole lot better than vaping non stop every day.