Seeking proof that older humans did not perish
Hi, guys. (Esp the older group, late 20s, 30s)
A quick headstart about me. I am in early 20s and am having a hard time navigating around it.
As Sylvia Plath said, "I need a mother, I need father. I need some older wiser being to cry to." Don't worry, i won't cry though. I just need answers.
Specifically:
Does it get better? Does anything get better or is this just what being alive is?
Can I start all over again if that involves disappointing pretty much everyone around me and everyone I hold dear.
There's an Urdu line I keep returning to: "maine tumhain apna dost banaya hai apne zameer ki masjid ka imaam nahi" I have never lived by this. I have let everyone be the imam of my conscience. My conscience now has forty imams and none of them is happy or agree.
- Will i have a fulfilling life? Will I find love, or will I accidentally marry someone who makes everything harder? Because that is genuinely one of my top fears. I just want a life where I am satisfied intellectually, personally, financially, relationally and i am willing to work for that. Is that so much to ask? I just think that I won't ever have anything for myself. Anything good won't come my way.
Someone please tell me you were also like this and you're fine now. Or at least functional. I'll take functional.