u/Loulus2020

I'm wondering how other therapists experience/do supervision? I'm still a relatively new therapist in CMH for a charity organisation. I have my organisation supervision which isn't the problem. It's clinical supervision I'm wondering about.

I don't know if I'm being really picky or expecting too much from the space and I feel like I'm doing it wrong? I am with my now 3rd supervisor because my first was very inappropriate and my second I found unhelpful, plus I moved jobs.

My current one I'm starting to feel unsure about. I feel like I want deeper reflection and conversations but I feel like they keep it very advicey, like I'll bring up a client issue and they will go on a schpiel on how they would handle it and what I could try, which is helpful of course on some level but I feel like something is missing. She can be a bit snippy sometimes and has disagreed with me in a way that feels she centers herself, I can't give an exact example but I have said something and she'll be like I don't agree, but leaves it as a blunt point with no discussion and it stings. I also know quite a bit about her personal life and history. I am in personal therapy too and wonder if I'm looking for supervision to be more therapyish? I dunno...

I want to bring it up with her but honestly am afraid how it will be taken.

What should supervision be like?

I'm wondering what kind of reasonable adjustments people with UC ask for in work to make the workday manageable. I'm based in England.

I had some in place from when I last flared badly such as WFH at the start of the day, have appointments start a little later, (mornings are generally worse for me) and I was told I can take extra breaks if needed, although I feel like they didn't really mean this as the nature of my job doesn't really allow for breaks when needed. Seeing less clients would probably help more but this hasn't really been offered as a solution. I'm a children's therapist in the community for context.

I suspect I'm starting to flare again and feeling exhausted, I just took a week's holiday to recover and feel like I need more. I want more from life than pushing through every work day to only be so exhausted at the end of the day and weekend I can't do anything. Or is this just life now. I can't afford less hours, and have been declined disability because 'I look well and understand my condition well.'

What kind of things can I suggest to my work to help me, I don't even know what will help, except if they could pay me when I'm off too 😅

Any advice and support appreciated.