Need everyone's genuine opinion 🙏
Class 12- 2022 88.4%
Neet 22- 375(didn't even study as I decided to go for neet in 12th only)
Neet 23- 499
Neet 24- 626
Neet 25 - 475
Neet 26- 616 Reneet 26- 524
Even if I count out running year it's 5 fkin years , I have failed , I can't even look myself in front of the mirror and my mom 💔
Context- lost my dad in 2021 due to Covid and I saw the dream that I could keep my mom and my brother happy once I enter mbbs , I made my decision to go for neet in class 12 which is why running yr was basically a mock test for me I didn't even completed half syllabus by then
The main advice I need is , my mom wants me to join bds now if I get it , but it takes 10+ year to even be profitable in bds , also I have already got bds in 2024 and taking it now makes me feel I have wasted the 2 years....
I have realised my mistake which I made this year , that is not realising NEET isn't for average students anymore, I have to study 10+ hours , solve 150+ questions daily from day 1 of my preparation
I don't know but I'll beg my mom on my knees for it but I'm thinking for convincing her for giving me 1 final chance ( in case it won't work I'll be the one to burn my books and notes next yr after exam to end this loop) ...
The main reason for me is - when my father was in his final days , he said to my mom " I will make my son a doctor in future " and I can't wrap up my head around that
I will lock myself in my room , stop going out , even in festivals or weddings or anything
Please give me your HONEST suggestion about my scenario 🙏💔..... I'm willing to make myself study till the extend I feel dizzy , but I'm promising I'll give my 200% this time and I won't settle for average 🙏