I think I’m in love with my best friend, wlw
I’m 15, F and she’s also 15, f. I’ve always gone back-and-forth with my sexuality because I have a lot of shame in it for some reason even though I’m not against anyone else I think I just have a lot of internalized homophobia because of society but in the past few weeks, I’ve been really wanting to have a teen romance as stupid as that sounds and wanting to date a girl really badly but not just because I want to date a girl I really wanna date my best friend. She’s so beautiful and her heart is so warm. I can imagine myself laying on her lap while she strokes my hair and hums. I just wanna lay in her arm and look into her eyes and I don’t know if that’s me just craving romance. I can barely sleep because all I can think about is her and laying in her arms, but I think she’s straight but I’m not sure because sometimes she says things which makes me think she’s not. I’ve only kissed two girls and I’ve only kissed one guy. I’m worried because I don’t want it to split up the friendship can I have some advice? Am I being crazy? Am I being just a dumb teenager? I just wanna be with her, but I also don’t know if it’s me making her be my crush because I just wanna be in a relationship confusing myself so much help