u/Mammoth_Hedgehog_496

Hello everyone. I am curious about others experiences with illusions. I had experienced some illusions in my first couple of months after KA. People would sometimes act scared or glare at me. I would look at their faces and for a moment see bull like faces or goat like faces. Quite frankly at the time I thought they were Rhakshasa! I don’t believe that now. I now believe these were illusions and it was a way of me learning, that no, I am not on a special mission! I know just how that sounds. I would have thought anyone telling me that had lost touch with reality.

I have also experienced a few illusions that seemed to be a sort of temptation. I saw a face change once. I once felt someone was standing right next to me and took my arm. The same person.

Once I would not have e believed in “magic.” Well, I experienced computer logons where the Windows face “winked.” Quite a few times, and not always the same. I even recorded it once. I decided I was offending her (goddess) by showing lack of faith… so I deleted it. Certainly the last time I doubted! She also opened my garage door on a rainy night when my opener wasn’t working. I felt she was laughing and hugged me. At that point I was not sure who “She” was.

I had thought it was Vaishnavi… then Maa Durga… then Maa Kali. I wasn’t familiar with any of them. I have learned all three are considered versions of Mahadevi, also know as Shakti.

I know many people on here have seen many different deities. Most are goddesses that are mother figures… but as I asked recently quite a few have seen male deities!

Maya seems to translate to both illusion and magic. I have read that Maya is indeed associated with Shakti or Mahadevi, recognized as the ultimate universal reality - essentially the creater of all. That is Hindu, but other traditions seem to have fairly similar beliefs.

I have been hearing cicadas for 10 months. The other night was something new. I heard a high pitched flute, and only in my right ear. I was half asleep. I recognized it, and immediately drifted into a semi-trance.

I had read you can hear musical instruments. Now I did. I feel spoiled by these confirming experiences.

Hi all.

I have been in a meditation/trance state where I feel like I am in a void. No light, no sound. It is peaceful. I wouldn’t say it was an out of body experience, but I sort of forgot where I am physically located in the room, like I am looking in different directions without moving my body. There is nothing to see. :) I don’t think I ever physically moved.

There may be some vague dots or shapes in the void, but basically dark. Like having your eyes closed, even when they are open.

I wondered if I was unusually old. I was 64.

Is there a name for the trancelike state that can be experienced during a kundalini awakening? That floating, trancelike feeling that can includes kriyas.

I saw the word Samadhi used, but I believe some said that was very advanced, only achieved after many years. I have also heard the word Bhava.

I recently read this was the case. I was shocked, but I no longer wonder why I had a KA. This is the reason! :)

Jai Kali Maa

I read, to my shock, that Kali chooses people to be her devotees. Is this traditionally true?

You can guess why I am shocked. I have been drawn to her. 10 months ago I did not know her name.

Jai Kali Maa

This is an experience and also a question. In the last 10 months or so, I have felt that almost all energy flowing from my crown chakra was on the right side of my head. Occasionally from the left, too, but definitely did not feel balanced. I am male, btw, and I know the right is considered masculine and the left feminine. My communication has been with a female deity. I have no idea if it comes into play, but I am left handed and heterosexual. I recently reached out by chanting to a male deity as well. He seemed to respond and immediately my left side felt like it flowed with more energy. There was more balance. It of course felt wonderful! He is considered by some to be Her consort. This balance has continued to occur. Not perfect, but much more balanced

So the question is does this sound somehow reversed? A male deity associated with the left side and a female with the right? I get the impression it is common for the right side to be stronger in males. Perhaps all that counts is I am getting help from two deities that are associated with Shakti and Shiva? That makes the most sense to me. I am very grateful for their help. It was a very powerful experience.

I am pretty sure I have read shared experiences in this group describing direct contact with a deity/god/goddess/higher being. Angels included. I mean “direct” contact where they have been “touched” spiritually or maybe even felt they had briefly “merged” with them. People have mentioned out of body experiences where this occurred. Meeting the higher being on the astral plane. Maybe you’d say they’d touched your soul?

I was hoping someone might want to share. I understand if it is too personal or you feel telling is offensive to the celestial being. I know Hindus feel that way! They say don’t tell about it. They consider it bragging.

Last night I went to get my hair cut. This lady has been cutting my hair for well over 20 years. She said, “I thought you were going to come in on Saturday.” I explained to her that I had intended to come in Saturday, I ran out of time and was very bummed I did not get a haircut that day! I never called the shop. She said she does get feelings someone will show up, and they do.

A doctor once said the same thing. He got a feeling a patient will call soon, and they do.

I was visited by a Hindu deity last November in a dream. She seemed to be in a certain part of my bedroom. I told my wife about it. Her reaction was maybe not so good (she is okay with it now). Maybe a week or so later, my wife said she had seen her in a dream… definitely NOT the deity I saw. It was like an old hag, tall and slim, dressed in black, no distinguishable face, with long claws. She pointed at my wife. This being spoke to her and told her to leave me alone and not to touch my food. She was upset and felt I had been visited by a demon. I assured her my dream was NOTHING like that, definitely not frightening. I was kind of stuck on the idea of Rakshasa at the time, so I assumed that is what she was. She saw it in the same location I saw the deity. Recently, again dreaming, I thought I saw Shiva walk by in the same area. He paid no attention to me.

I am curious if anyone has seen anything like what my wife saw? Any idea what it was? It seemed to be trying to divide us. Fortunately not, although this “break-in” period has been rough on her. A lot to for her to accept, just like for me.

I was visited by a Hindu deity last November in a dream. She seemed to be in a certain part of my bedroom. I told my wife about it. Her reaction was maybe not so good (she is okay with it now). Maybe a week or so later, my wife said she had seen her in a dream… definitely NOT the deity I saw. It was like an old hag, tall and slim, dressed in black, no distinguishable face, with long claws. She pointed at my wife. This being spoke to her and told her to leave me alone and not to touch my food. She was upset and felt I had been visited by a demon. I assured her my dream was NOTHING like that, definitely not frightening. I was kind of stuck on the idea of Rakshasa at the time, so I assumed that is what she was. She saw it in the same location I saw the deity. Recently, again dreaming, I thought I saw Shiva walk by in the same area. He paid no attention to me.

I am curious if anyone has seen anything like what my wife saw? Any idea what it was? It seemed to be trying to divide us. Fortunately not, although this “break-in” period has been rough on her. A lot to for her to accept, just like for me.

This morning I was putting a plate in my lunchbox. My wife called out at that exact moment, “ Did I forget to put a plate in your lunchbox?”

This is not a very dramatic example of telepathy, I know. That said, I cannot count how many times she has answered questions I never asked!! Once I was making coffee and worrying there wasn’t quite enough. She calls out, “I’ll drink it if it’s weak.” Never said a word.

We have been married a very long time, but she did this kind of thing on our first date! It kind of scared me. She had done it to others, too. Doesn’t even surprise me now.

This morning I was putting a plate in my lunchbox. My wife called out at that exact moment, “ Did I forget to put a plate in your lunchbox?”

This is not a very dramatic example of telepathy, I know. That said, I cannot count how many times she has answered questions I never asked!! Once I was making coffee and worrying there wasn’t quite enough. She calls out, “I’ll drink it if it’s weak.” Never said a word.

We have been married a very long time, but she did this kind of thing on our first date! It kind of scared me. She had done it to others, too. Doesn’t even surprise me now.

Has anyone had the feeling that the kundalini energy keeps your emotions from exploding? I had a situation where I should have been very upset. I was! But I felt like Mr. Spock. It wouldn’t show and I stayed calm. I think this is de-escalating would could be a very bad scene. It would not let me start fighting. The consequences is the other party is quite upset and feels I am distant. It is NOT true, but I know it would appear that way.

Okay, I will admit this is a very odd question. Since your Kundalini Awakening, do people have odd reactions to you?

I at least think I experience this. The reactions are sometimes quite good. Sometimes shock or fear. Sometimes an odd look like there is something they don’t like about you or maybe a sense of uneasiness.

I will also add that some people in my family are known to have a very cold stare that sometimes is misinterpreted. I believe the expression is “resting bitch face.” My uncle used to scare me a little as a kid as I couldn’t read his mood! So perhaps it is partly that.

It seems more, though. These reactions seem particularly noticeable from people from India. It has happened with Arabic people, Africans, and Latinos. I am don’t think it is racism or anything like that, on my part or theirs. White people (like me) not really. Maybe I am suggesting people from some areas are more sensitive? They always seem to be foreign born people. Not from American culture.

I am an old guy. Sometimes I get very bright smiles from young ladies. It just seems like an unusually friendly reaction. A young Muslim Arabic lady looked me in the eye and gave the sweetest smile. That is not really a cultural norm, maybe she is just very nice. This happens with men, too. The dark or fearful looks seem to always be men. I can also recall a few young ladies that treated me rudely for no apparent reason.

Are they sensing energy? Do they see my third eye?? Now… this IS crazy, but when I had my head in the clouds shortly after my KA, I actually wondered, even suspected, that the dark or fearful looks were from Rhakshasa! I do NOT believe that now. I suppose just delusional, but I sometime saw a sort of picture of a bull or a goat in their faces. I do not now.

I did receive a dream visit from Maa Khali, and she did tell me I had killed a lot of Rhakshasa long ago, and I would again! I was shocked. That surely is why I thought that. No, I don’t believe I am going to do that in this life! I guess I did believe it then. Was she testing me somehow?

These reactions still seem to happen. It just seems like some sort of sensitivity. Thanks for listening to my crazy rambling.

I seem to get a feeling of moving energy if I touch the lowest chakra with one hand, then progressively move up to the next chakra with the other hand. One hand ends up on top of my head. When I remove both hands, I feel the energy flowing out of my head like a battery. This seems like it was a guided action originally. I don’t think I just thought it up. Does this have a name? It is sort of like your arms are conductors between chakras.

Has anyone else experienced being constantly tired? I feel like this is because of kriyas. These may take an hour. I experience the trance like state where the energy is flowing out of my back, head and shoulders, sometimes several times a day. I feel like this is helping me deal with a lot of anxiety and stress. It does help me hold things together. When I don’t have to get up for work, and when I am home, it seems to encourage a lot of sleep.

I few days ago I experienced a lot of anxiety and fear, for no apparent reason. It was really awful, I almost thought I needed to be hospitalized. It seemed to just go away by the next day. The two days before it were quite happy.

Was this some sort of kundalini cleansing? Was it driving out a bunch of negative inner feelings? It was shocking how intense it was, then gone. I feel okay now, so a pretty confusing experience. I can’t really explain it to my wife. I was a basket case for a day.

KA can be a huge shock. You question your mental health. You might question religious beliefs. You question your perception of the entire universe and what you perceive as real. You will be told it is imaginary and it is really a mental health issue. Certainly a psychiatrist (in the West at least) can see it no other way. And indeed, it can disturb your mind to be experiencing what you always believed was impossible. There is no way you’d believe someone else if it hadn’t happened to you.

I knew practically nothing about Hinduism. I have since learned all the things I experienced… nadas, kriyas, visit by a Hindu deity… are considered blessings to be met with joy. The question “Why me?” remains and probably always will. I know Hindus believe it can be because of past lives. The deity did mention a past life. I have always been open to the idea of reincarnation. Some places you have never been feel familiar.

It is back and forth, deluded , something special, deluded, something special. Today I had that feeling of energy flowing out of my body, like I am reaching beyond the physical. My head feels partially in the clouds, but I am calm and peaceful. Less stressed. I haven’t experienced this type of feeling since the first few weeks of initial occurrence.