I need to vent
I (16m) have been diagnosed for almost 4 years now and I have had a lot of stuff happen. Within the first month they did heart imaging and my aorta was prolapsed. This lead to me having a aorta replacement but when they went in there they found out that one of my valves was almost completely gone so they fixed it. About a year and a half later half way through my sophomore year of high-school my lung collapsed it was terrifying I was struggling to breath I couldn't move without pain. This event happened on a Tuesday I wasnt brought to the hospital till the Friday after my lung was almost 80% collapsed i wasnt going to make it the night. I was rushed to the hospital a stayed there for 15 days I had 4 different chest tubes 1 blood transfusion and about 300 bruises when I left. This all leads upto this moment im so scared that im gonna die at any moment my legs always give out (I have a caine to walk) and I cant even stand up straight. My question to end this vent off is does the fear of mortality every go away?