I just wanna go home. You have to be completely insane to volunteer to come here.
I never liked it from day one. Not this body, not the noises, not the rules.
Everything is so irritating.
Nothing makes sense and there is so much injustice.
Good people are rare to find and are always struggling.
Does anyone else remember how hard it was to be born? I remember vague stuff like not in terms of language but light and patterns and just remember loving sleep and feeling uncomfortable as I was picked up from one person to the next.
I also remembered how difficult it was to walk and how much it hurt.
I liked light, colors, water, gentle people like the elderly. Hated kids my age but didn't mind babies. I also did not like adults.
None of what they did made sense to me. I thought rules were stupid and confining and I questioned them all the time.
I absolutely hated crowds.
I guess I loved the things that reminded me of "home" - I LOVED the beach and was never scared of it. I was scared of crossing a bridge over water though and thought it would collapse. I had a huge imagination and would watch TV for hours on end.
I loved the feeling of going on swings, flying higher and higher, splashing in the bathtub, coloring.
I think I came from a water planet / a light planet / a planet with lots of colors where I glided easily.
I guess all the things we find joyful as kids is because they remind us of home.
I have nothing against the game objectively. But the fanaticsm is over the top. Why would you get excited about watching a group of overpaid men kick about a ball made by some kid in a factory who gets paid peanuts??
I mean it's not like you win anything. They get paid, you don't have a pot to piss in. After the match, you still go back to the 9-5 grind and get paid what those footballers earn a second just for kicking a ball for 90 minutes.
The whole thing is an overhyped scam. Then they act like bloody caveman, shouting slurs non stop. Get over it. It's so sad. I went to the supermarket to buy some milk and all they were talking about was football.
It's tribal behaviour. Bread and circus. Who cares about the World Cup? I wish they would put their energies toward changing the world, demanding better pay, less hours and banning this whole shitshow.
It's all a big distraction. Thoughts?