u/Minecraft-9234

"that looks like complete->!speed face!<"

Mind games. Playing hard to get, acting weird for no reason, trying to provoke me by staying away or being too close… it’s annoying because it’s dishonest and plays with people’s feelings

Mine's pretty damn high, I will not share more info for obvious reasons

Remember if you’re the only one married you’re gonna get jumped from all angles

Probably that I’d overwhelm them by being way too available and clingy.
On top of that I tend to spiral into self hate often which makes me a burden to deal with

If we try to be a little more realistic with things (marry instead of casually date because I’m not allowed to anyways) then probably by being extremely lazy, and my many bad habits are just awful to deal with at home

Holy yapfest, now we have successfully proven why I am a pain the ass, the balls, and probably a waste of time and space
Am i loathing myself again? Yes.
Annnd I sound edgy now. FUCK.

(ok ignore the BS you just read and answer the question lol, dw abt my sanity nobody cares anyways now bye)

For those who don't understand what I mean by the question, it's basically people who joke around a LOT or try to be funny or overly dramatic to seem less dull and more appealing in general

If we speak in terms of looks, basically people who wear super unique outfits (maybe a cool hat, maybe weird shoes, stuff like that) because they just like to be unique and cool.

I personally find such people really awesome to be around (I'd be hypocritical if I said otherwise, because I myself am VERY flamboyant in personality). Wanting to avoid trends and just stick out from the crowd is unquestionably badass in my eyes.

I know a lot of dudes though who don't really like me that much because to them, it's corny af, attention seeking, and uhhh... trys too hard like timmy tuff knuckles (Yes. I was actually told that once.)

So, I wanted to ask what you personally think of it.
(holy fucking yapfest I should throw myself into the nearest dumpster fire my god what am I doing with my absolutely pathetic lifeeeeeee... that's enough.)

“Fuck. I guess I’m truly cooked in this society”

so obviously nobody is perfect and we are bound to have some shitty traits. so, why not share them to the world so that we can tell you “it’s okay bro”?

If you want mine, it’s probably that I suffer from extreme self hatred, to the point I would probably deprecate myself to make someone feel better or even as a JOKE 🥀🥀

(yeah Im severely insecure on top of that, not sure if they're the same thing but that ultimately does not matter)

So... I've swapped between at least 4 different shampoos (pantene included) but they've all failed because my hair STILL has dandruff

The shampoo I'm currently using is LITERALLY an anti-dandruff shampoo (Piroctone Olamine, I'm not an expert but surely this information might be useful for some of you who DO know)

So... I need help gng.

Sexiest is in terms of beauty, and sweetest is in terms of personality.
Take your pick. There are no wrong answers here.

Personally I'd pick sweetest for those who are curious

(You can genderswap this question if you're gay or if you're a girl or whatever)

If my partner is unavailable most of the time (I know people are busy but I tend to cling on for dear life because boredom slaughters my soul)

if they tend to be very dull and unexpressive with their responses or don’t react to them much

if they arent willing to trust me with their issues (for some reason it makes me feel better when I’m vented to, and knowing someone is keeping something from me because they don’t trust me is depressing)

So... this is going to be a yapfest and a vent post. Quick warning before we start.

Now... I've always been selfless. Never cared about myself much, only cared about others (proof of this are my bad hygiene habits, don't judge). I've always tried to find peace between people of opposing views, religions, or whatever their differences may be. But being a centrist (not just politically, but in general as well) is exhausting because you get lots of hate from both sides.

On top of that, I am extremely unstable mentally. It is very easy for me to start overthinking about my insecurities, my life, my inner voice, and even my religion (I don't really practice it too well, and I support the rainbows even though my religion says otherwise... which is causing me to lose my sanity because of the fear that I am going to get smitten)

I get chronically bored very fast, I get burned out easily from simple chores and tasks (yesterday my grandpa told me to hold the phone for him while he did something, and within 2 minutes I quit because I was tired of boredom and just standing there. That's how bad it is). Even though my grades are quite high, my parents always tell me I can do more, that I never study (which is true, but studying more than I already am is going to kill me).

My aunt even said it herself: Most people have great muscle but no brain to put it to good use. I have the opposite which is BETTER because I have potential, and exercising a muscle is easier than fixing your way of thinking.

But... it's all too much. Between the overwhelming guilt I get from never picking a side, everyone telling me I can do better even though I don't think I can, people telling me I'm actually a great person even though my inner voice says otherwise... I'm always stuck in a state of conflict. Between myself.. and something else. And I don't know how to deal with it.

But... I don't understand. Why do I feel BETTER when others vent to me instead of feeling worse? Why am I still able to help others with their problems even during my worst times? Why do I want to vent even though the more I do the more I overthink? How do I escape this endless cycle of conflict in my FUCKING mind? How do I escape the endless cycle of self-hate I give to myself?

How... am I supposed to grow and unleash my potential... if I don't have any motivation or drive? How do I fix my laziness and bad habits if I'm too lazy to fix it?

I'm done with myself. There is clearly no way for me to improve as an individual. All I'll remain is a piece of trash with no talent or success, inferior to others. Inferiority is my biggest fear and it's the harsh reality I put myself in. And the fix? There is none. It's too late.

Now you know why I think I'd be a terrible husband at the age of SIXTEEN? Now you know why I feel inferior when I see most other Muslims who don't give a FUCK about getting a girlfriend (or already have one for some reason) while I desperately want one even though it won't happen? Now you know why I'm a hopeless brat who deserves nothing but to live for 70 years in torment instead of killing himself on the spot because religion prevents me from doing it? Now I know why religion is hated so much: ME.

Now you know why I have no potential? Now you know why my conscience is screaming at me on the inside? Now you know that I'm chronically bored and will only spend my life saying corny jokes? Now you know why I'm a fucking retard who can't remember why he entered the kitchen six seconds ago?

And this post.. is nothing more than an invitation to the pity party. It's not going to fix my problems, and I'm a hypocrite for doing it anyway. Now you know the problem. Now you know there is no solution. All that's left... is to start the mockery.

Go on. Find a way to compliment me without sounding like an ass kisser. Pull a refutation from your ass. Understand that I am a freak of nature. An anomaly that should never have been born.

Great.. now I sound edgy all of a sudden. This is bullshit.
(mods, take this down if you wish. I deserve it, don't I?)

Once slapped a guy in the face because he was being a dick. Came to school the next day with my index finger on that same hand fractured.

FUCK.

Personally I act extremely gay and touchy in front of them for no reason at all and then they go "bro that's gay" 🤣🤣🤣🤣
It's even funnier when you account that I'm just giving my buddy a shoulder massage and he lwk thinks that's gay behavior. Society is so cooked fr 😭😭

There were even a couple times where they actually asked me if I'm actually gay 💀💀 (FYI, I am straight).
Ah, homophobia. If there's one good thing that comes out of it, it's peak entertainment at the very least 🥀🥀

(On a side note, I just noticed I wrote double emojis everywhere. I guess that's why 2 balls are better than one. Wait... AHHHH *explodes*)

Edit: holy cornball ts is crazy. Hey... at least we know trolling's an effective method

I was gonna put mine but as I was typing I realized the list is way too long (and that's unacceptable because I must suffer) so I js left it 😭😭

I'm js gonna say im a really great person emotionally, otherwise I'd be bragging and that's rude as hell 💔

(oops, ignore the "and worst traits" lol)