Teenager 5 years belspalsy
I had this belspalsy back when I was 14 and now I am turning 18. There is no school year without bullies and highschool years did not end well. I have trouble of fitting in into society and shapes my identity to be intorvert. I feel like I am not who I am meant to be, and It breaks my heart.
I feel pressured in life whenever I see teenagers becoming the pure best version of themselves, especially when I feel the speed of their natural growth, for me It is a success. The only thing that ever changed in me is my body and height.
I have low self esteem, good thing I can still manage to be on top although behind these academic excellence there's this me who have encountered almost losing myself out of stress and depression, for once I losed myself at age of 15, the Doctor said that I am not able to reach highchool or even college anymore, but how lucky I am writing this right now. Sometimes I am wondering how does it feel to be truly happy. I am grateful of the life that I have right now, but to be honest life feels dry often I am always anxious. What I fear right now is the college field.
I would greatly appreciate for the possible comments.