Please tell me I’m not crazy
I’ve been on amitriptyline for 5 years for pain and trouble falling asleep at night. I absolutely loved it and it was amazing, but my appetite changed a lot (increased) and my life overall is extremely different than it was when I started it. I was smoking, working non stop and studying, never getting a break and so on. Meanwhile I started going to the gym, solving some of the medical problems and eating a lot cleaner. So I thought it may be time to figure things out without it.
I talked to my neurologist and we both agreed it was time to make it happen. Dropped from 50 to 25 in a month. It was pretty bad, but not extreme. Since I had no big issues with this new dose after about a couple of weeks, I stopped it completely one week ago.
And here’s where the real nightmare started. Started hearing clinking glasses sounds downstairs while I sleep, hearing people screaming in my sleep, having absolutely the worst nightmares with my son, being unable to function until 2 pm and so on. If it would’ve been only this, I think I would’ve handled it okay. However, my anxiety is through the roof like never before. Started getting very emotional, tired, paranoid, can’t focus and all the same time.
Every night I try to read more about it to convince myself I’m not crazy. It’s worth mentioning I’m also on immunotherapy + steroids and other treatments. However, I can’t seem to calm myself and I’m just hoping it’s a phase.