u/Murky_Row_1488

We met by chance,
two strangers who somehow became familiar.
Somewhere along the way,
our conversations became something I looked forward to,
and a friendship grew into something
I wasn't quite sure how to explain.

Then I found pieces of your life
you hadn't shared with me.

And suddenly, I didn't know what to think.
Maybe it's me, pulling back
from something I don't fully understand.
Maybe it's you, growing distant
for reasons I can only guess.

Something feels different now.
The conversations have changed,
and there's a quietness between us
that wasn't there before.

I don't know if it's because
I see things differently now,
or if something has shifted for you, too.

It's strange how someone can become part of your day
without you realizing how much,
until things begin to feel different
and you find yourself wondering why.

I don't know what to call this,
or what it was supposed to be.
I just know that something felt meaningful,
and now I'm left trying to understand
where the warmth went,
what was real,
and whether you feel the distance
the way I do.

My body betrays what my mind has spent so long trying to forget.
My mind is still recovering from the deep wound your love carved into me, while my body recognizes you before I ever see you, sensing a predator drawing near. I freeze somewhere between fear and lust, betrayed by a treacherous desire I cannot command.

I feel you before I find you.

Then gravity takes hold. Thicker than the earth, stronger than reason, pulls my baby blues toward your opposing chocolate orbs.

And suddenly, there is nothing else.

Our eyes lock, and the crowded room collapses into a narrow tunnel of darkness and light, every human shape blurring at the edges until there is only you looking at me, and me looking back.

Electric.

We have never touched.

And yet you have adored me with your eyes in ways I have felt more deeply than any hand could have reached. You have undressed my soul without ever laying a finger upon my skin.

That kind of adoration is a thing I fear I will carry with me to my grave.

A twisted, forbidden love—one that gives me just enough to keep me starving. Just enough to keep me wanting.
Just enough to make every breath without you feel like drowning. I am suffocating beneath the weight of everything we cannot have.