Chickened out last minute and Regretting it
Hello Foreign Service Reddit,
Last week I was about to join this week's orientation, but I got cold feet and decided to decline. I think between the uncertainty and some of the negative reviews I read on reddit about my particular speciality my instincts were telling me not to do it. I had prepared to move and everything, but in the end it was as if I was too scared to quit my current job and move to attend the orientation, so I cancelled everything at the last minute.
My current job I have seen and done everything and there is absolutely no possibility for growth, learning new things and making more money. This Foreign Service job was going to be the beginning of new adventures, new skills, new connections and many good things to come. I passed the difficult exam, interview, clearances and everything, but still somehow chickened out.
Has anyone here declined twice and then successfully passed and got in to the service a second time?