Talk me out of it
It's been 40 months since I last took phenibut. It ruined my life. But I'd give anything to trade places with that person 46 months ago who just started. It gave me unbelievable insight and happiness when I had started it. But it was also the worst thing I've ever done. I think it was my lack of knowledge and self control that really fucked me over.
I'm addicted to kratom (2-5g a day) and weed (40-60mg a day) and my life is absolutely horrible. I've had multiple botched surgeries and I'm stuck in a room in a house where everyone hates me because I'm trans. I'm homeless and can't work because of my physical issues. I want to take phenibut so I can get off the kratom (why is it so hard this time?) and experience a moment of peace for once. But I'm afraid of falling down the hole again.
I'm sitting here looking at the smallest possible order. 15 grams. I don't want that much in my possession. I want like 2 grams.
Please talk me out of this. I'm so close. My life is so fucking horrible I really want to feel different. I'll probably just end up in the hospital again.