I feel dismissed
Yes, I have anxiety, I used to have real panic attacks before, but I fucking swear, I did not have a panic attack in the mental sense today.
I am extremely tired all the time, I walk a little bit and I feel like I ran, and I am out of breath. My ferritin level is 9, I got the blood results a few days ago. Often I cannot even move my arms properly as they feel super heavy and weak and I've been struggling with these symptoms for months.
I was having a cozy day today, came home after work and watched tv with my boyfriend. I was again, exhausted physically, but I felt great psychologically. I started to breath like there is not enough air in the room, just like after running. I felt so weak that I could not speak back to my partner nor move too much.
Of course, my boyfriend got worried and drove me to emergency. I felt so terrible physically and was hoping I will get an infusion, as I assume this is all due to my ferritin being so low and that I finally have explanation for all my symptoms I've been experiencing for so long.
They checked my heart, and it was beating fast, but I swear I was chill and calm with no worry in my mind. Even the extreme tiredness I am kinda used to. I just wanted an infusion to get the energy back and to stop the pain in my feet and hands.
I don't even want to go in details what and how they told me that I just have a panic attack. When I told her that when I walk I am tired just like I was running and could my weakness and breathing stronger be ferritin related? She just continued with the slow smiles, which just told me she is trying to look and be "calming" and I could care less because I am not under actual panic.
She took my blood, and said she will come back in 5 min to update me about hemoglobin. She said your blood is ok, and it was a panic attack.
AM I CRAZY?? Yes, today I was grasping for air, and I STILL, even hours later feel like I have to breath deep to be functional. I was not hyperventilating in the classic way, but in a VERY TIRED way.
Could it be that my body is not getting enough oxygen with low feritin and normal hemoglobin? She did not tell me the number so who knows what's my hemoglobin level.
I mean, myb it is not smth to go to emergency for, but I would do the same if I saw my boyfriend lying with open mouth and strugling with moving.