Leave the state or fake my meds?
So, I got diagnosed with schizophrenia about 2 years ago. I was hospitalised for 3 weeks, and then they injected me with Abilify. They put me on a community treatment order and enforced monthly injections. Then a few months ago, the tribunal told me that I’m no longer on a CTO and I’m no longer obligated to take injections. But I’m still obligated to see the mental health team that was assigned to me. I have to see a psychiatrist team every month or so. My next appointment is in 5 days. I’m almost certain that they’re going to enforce medication. Should I accept oral tablets and then fake taking them? Should I leave the state immediately? If I fake taking the medication, will they be able to catch on? What will be the consequences of that? I realise that I’m not completely mentally balanced. But the antipsychotics give me horrible side effects, it’s unbearable. They make me obese, they make me feel dead inside. My narcissist mother is the one who’s responsible for me being put on the CTO, all she does is gaslight me and manipulate me. I’m currently living with her. So she may also rat me out. I don’t know what to do.