u/Neither_Signature666

For the past 3-4 years I’ve been struggling with my mental health. I used to be very physically active, working hard labour jobs and training and fighting in boxing. It wasn’t till I lost an important fight in boxing that my life began to change. After the loss I felt worthless, I felt like all my hard work had gone to waste and this mentality was the start of my fall. I was studying at the time as well but due to me being so caught up in my head over this loss, I found it really hard to ground myself and I stopped attending University which ultimately resulted in me being kicked out. I didn’t even know how I was going to show my parents. Fast forward to now, its been 3-4 years without me being in work, I barely have any friends, I barely leave the house and thats been my life. I’ve found it incredibly hard to keep up with my hygiene, going a while without showering or brushing my teeth. I don’t do nothing around the house, I don’t do dishes, I don’t clean up the house or my room, my dad cleans my room for me and he says to me “I need to learn how to be an independent man.” I was also diagnosed with psychosis last year and I stayed in a mental hospital for a month, I had been taking anti psychotics for over a year and only recently been taken off them.

I feel like such a failure because I can barely socialise like I used to, I used to be quite a confident kid, I could speak to girls and keep conversations flowing but now I’ve lost my confidence to talk to girls and I’m too scared to do it. I also have a driving license with no car as I’m too scared that I will crash the car or something and its funny because I never thought like this before. I’m just worried that I’ll never be able to be independent like my dad says, I also can’t cook.

All I do is stay in bed all day and doom scroll and I’ve honestly not seen the problem with it up until recently, where I’ve realised I need to change my life, I need serious help and tips on how to better myself, overcome my fears and start fresh to turn my life around because I’m only 23 and I still have time, but like we all know, time waits for no one.