Looking for a bit of dota help
Throwaway for obvious reasons...
I'm a bit of an addict. Not drugs, alcohol or substance, but dota and porn.
You read that right.
I'm in my mid 30s and unemployed, living off inheritance, alone in an apartment. I play around 15 games of dota a day. Every other game I'll open a porn tab and do the deed. This has gone on for 5 whole years. Neither my friends nor relatives know what I'm up to and at this point I'm too scared to say anything.
I do have aspirations in life, but I tell myself to get started tomorrow and suddenly 5 years has passed. Tbh its probably not a dota problem, its not fair to blame a game. I think I'm trying to get away from reality too much and letting myself rot. I feel like I'm in a mental limbo where life is both amazing and awful.
I'm a chronic procrastinator. I get nothing done on any day. I'll wake up, motivate myself to do something good, play 3 games of dota, j-off a bit, eat something, take a nap, wake up feeling fresh and queue up again. That's my whole life. Time fucking flies, man. 5 whole years.
Someone set me down the right path. Flame me. Give me the hard truth. Ty.