Dealing with anger
Need to vent! My patience is so short these days, and I find myself bouncing between feeling motivated, uplifted and encouraged, to feeling defeated, exhausted, hopeless, and angry.
I am so tired of simply living and existing and feeling like my very presence is an insult to someone. Those of us with nasal BB don’t feel safe anywhere. There isn’t a space of peace or ease because I am constantly holding my breath as to not offend someone. Some days it’s hard to even ignore the reactions when people go out of their way to announce what they are smelling loudly for anyone to hear. It makes me so angry. I don’t even have anymore tears to cry because I am so enraged with this condition and how limiting it has been. How my life has passed me by and how I want to be free and live but I feel like I am just trying my best to survive in any activity I do that involves people.
It’s also tough being motivated to change when you are constantly reminded of what you are trying to escape from. I can’t wait until summer gets here and I’m just waiting for the school gatherings and activities to end so I can work out my issues in peace without feeling judged every damn minute.