My conflicting feelings after playing Pursuitcore for the first time.
A friend of mine got me introduced into the game and fandom a little over 2 weeks ago and told me about it. Unfortunately right when I wanted to check it out, David Baszucki turned into the devil and for no good reasons started to smite and ban or lobotomize a bunch of Roblox games. During the time Pursuitcore was dead, I started to occasionally consume various content of it(gameplay clips, fanart, etc.) to a point it where fanart shows up every now and then on my social media feeds. I may or may not have an issue where I can very quickly get attached to characters or people, which made me do the most larp thing imaginable in my head and made some cosplays (so far only of Nyan and Mikaela) and just used them in different Roblox games for the time being. (GIF related)
So fast forward to when the game was unlocked again and alive, I wanted to play it with my friend who originally introduced me but she never did so far. I got sad because she wanted to teach it me and a few other things. Nowadays she is usually just is busy with other friend groups and as of late didn't really treat me or respect me that well, while also being very cryptic about things. I told her about it and she did apologized but nothing really happened and changed. So that kinda brought me back to where I began.
I then decided to just join random public lobbies myself and play for a bit but I am not really sure how I feel after playing. I normally do not play or enjoy Asym's / dbd games really and for the longest time have avoided the ones on Roblox, because some of them sooner or later end up in controversies or drama all the time, however I wanted to give Pursuitcore a fair chance.
Now as for the positives and what actually got me into wanting to play the game in the first place was always the aesthetic of the characters, maps and era it takes heavily inspiration from. I always am surprised how much love and care devs usually put into Asym's in Roblox and I REALLY respect that. For example the TF2 Mario Kart map, teleported me back when I first ever played TF2 back in the early 2010's and it was actually so cool to see it. Another thing I really love are Dante's and Mikaela's bright colorful designs and colorschemes, they remind me so much of one of my own OC's I had since 2013 and are peak 2010's designs.
As for the negatives, there isn't much to say other than I don't think I enjoy the core gameplay loop and is one of the reasons I avoided Asym's to this point, especially since I tried Asym's before on other platforms outside Roblox. After just a few rounds I started to feel fatigued and at unease. I have to admit it's probably both a mix of skill issue and having no motivations or goals to get me playing again. It feels more like a game that could potentially be more fun with friends but I have noone that would even bother.
This brings me to Today/Now. Pursuitcore is probably the first game in a long while that conflicts me. I REALLY enjoy and respect a lot of the things it is trying to do and I love and adore the fandom, settings, maps, characters, etc but knowing I can't see myself playing the actual game is really somewhat weird and makes me uncomfortable, like im actually larping or a fake fan.
Edit: Thank you guys for your nice words, I am starting to feel better now.