How do I find the sect of paganism that aligns with my beliefs?
I’m leaving Montheistic beliefs amidst a discovery of my own beliefs. Over the course of my life I’ve always noticed how connected I felt to nature, it felt as though I physically was submerged within the earth itself.
The sound of the ocean crashing and the waves submerging spoke to me like a language. The trees felt as though they were consciously
living and could experience sentience and emotions.
The love I felt for nature was beyond anything else I have experienced, it felt so natural and like loving and caring and being apart of nature was my sole purpose in life.
When I told my family about this they said that believing that the Earth is divine and living is demonic and blatant paganism. I’d often argue with them about the logic behind their monotheistic beliefs and express how deeply connected I am with accepting the Earths divinity and wanting to submerge myself in its ecosystems.
I sought help from a professor of mine who was Native American, I spoke to her about my troubles and what I was experiencing I explained to her how I felt about the planet and the Earth, I told her that I felt as though the Earth is a woman, and I often referred to God as Mother Nature in our conversations.
She asked me what faith I resonated with and I told her that I did not know, I told her that I often worshipped the Earth by expressing my love for it but have no concept of how to actually worship and display reverence for Mother Nature.
She told me her faith is rooted in Animism the idea that everything has a spirit from rocks to trees to the water to animals and beyond, and that she shows reverence and respect to those spirits.
I have no clue on how to actually worship her what sects that align with what I truly believe, and how I can practice worship to not only Mother Nature but her creations as well.
I’m a black woman and hear how certain practices and traditions are closed and I don’t want to poke my head in spiritual ancestral plains that I don’t belong in, Can someone help me please?