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Finally, I understood why I Related to Hachiman ,

Me irl, am not a loner, nor did I ever feel like I have never met a genuine person...

Actually, I am an ambivert (leaning a little more to the extrovert side) and I am also quite cheerful.

So I always used to keep wondering why am I relating to Hachiman?

Then today I had a sudden realization..

Actually, my relating to Hachiman and finding interest started when he drops a dialogue in Season 1 episode 3,

"I hate nice girls .........." Quote from Oregairu

Look, to tell you the truth I don't fully agree with this quote BUT there are some parts of it that happened with me too in real life,

"If they so much as say hello, it stays on my mind. If they return texts, my heart races. The day one calls me, I know I’ll look at my call history and grin. But that’s just them being nice. People who are nice to me are also nice to everyone else. I almost end up forgetting that.".

(Part of the Quote)

Because last year [I am still just a high schooler],

Here at my school we were seated according to a seating plan, and two pair girl then two pair boy and vice versa, that's how we were seated per row.

And my crush sat directly in front of me

And it's an obvious thing, what does an average guy do?

Try to talk right?

I did the same too..

And she also used to talk while laughing,

So I started feeling that maybe I have a chance..

And I also knew that she has some other crush, still I thought of trying and my expectations started getting high...

One of my friends had also noticed it. And he told me the same thing,

A nice girl will always act nice, that doesn't mean she loves you..

But I didn't listen..

And a few months later I slowly started understanding from her behavior that all this is just my delusion, that she loves me.. or that I have a chance.

She didn't talk that much (actually exam time was going on) but even after that she didn't talk.

And now we have come into a new session and she starts talking again, and I realize what a big fool I was.

I could understand from her words that I am just a friend to her.. and maybe it's not her fault.. it was my fault that I raised too many high expectations....

And because of this reason, back when I was watching Oregairu, this quote hit me quite hard..

Right now I talk to girls just thinking of them as normal classmates and try not to make any emotional attachment..

So that I don't hurt myself.

And it's not like I believe girls are bad.

They are also human beings and it's their choice how they act..

So that was just it, nothing that special, I just wanted to speak out the thoughts kept inside me,

If you can tell why you related to Hachiman, you can tell below..