u/NoPhilosophy55

I enjoy tarot, astrology, and crystals (idk if they heal people but I like them they are pretty and I like some of the energy from them) I’ve hoped spiritual practices for years trying to find something paganism has been my go to for a long time but animism and pantheism are probably better for me. I’m not a deity work person, a monotheistic or polytheistic person, I’m not a spells person. I only ever really celebrated the solstices and equinoxes. I’m a big soul, spirit, reincarnation person. I’m interested in animistic witchcraft but I’m struggling finding sources for that specifically. If anyone knows thank you.

So I’ve struggled with my religious identity for a long time due to religious OCD kind of ruining certain aspects of religion/spirituality for me. I love tarot and astrology and crystals they’ve been my staples through all of my religious escapades over the last 6 years. I cannot do deity worship it just doesn’t work for me in a Christian, Hindu, Buddhist or Pagan way. I just don’t fully believe in the divine contacting us that personally. I’ve made altars, I’ve been to church I’ve been to temple I’ve begged anything to show me a sign it was there and I’ve never received an answer. That seems like a huge part of paganism though and I’m not sure I can consider myself a pagan/witch not believing in divine sources connecting with us. Now I’ve come to terms I’m probably pantheist/animist but I feel like in all those stories of old gods and new they interacted with people but now in this age they do not and it makes me wonder if they were ever there. This is more of a “does anyone else feel Similar or struggle with this” post because most posts I see on this and the witch sub are deities and spells which are two things I struggle with the most.