Anyone else in Spravato treatment beginning to get a bit concerned?
I've done three complete treatments and overall I feel lots better. Depression is lifting and I actually am enjoying life. Heck, I'm even learning to like myself all over again. But, the way things are being handled at my clinic concerns me. There is no doctor to be seen or spoken to if I have concerns, only a seemingly overwhelmed and inexperienced young nurse practitioner who can never give me a straight answer. There are up to four people in the same room zoned out on esketamine where we hear every cough or chatting from the NP and medical assistant. There is no privacy so you smell your neighbor's stinky feet and the other ones sobs. To be fair, I cry too. But this can't be how it is in other clinics I've seen the pictures and heard the commentaries. For all the money we pay and insurance covers, you think they would at least have some kind of curtain to separate the patients.
All the while I have had clonidine to lower my blood pressure on two separate occasions just to lower my 210 over 100 blood pressure. After attempting the fourth session, I stood up and said I was just going to go home if that was okay. The NP agreed, and said that was protocol. But wasn't that protocol during the first and third treatment days as well? This all is starting to feel kind of dangerous. Are we all guinea pigs of sorts? Are we part of an experiment? I don't know. A big part of me feels like quitting now that I still have most of my brain cells intact. Thoughts?