Hey guys. I'm planning on writing a book about narcissist. It would be a novel ( in my mother tounge, not English) I've been through a hell for a past 3 years and finally getting better. I have an idea : what if victim could turn the tables and get back at narcissistic predator? Imagine this, he meet someone he thinks he can use and abuse and latter discard but tables can turn around and he can taste his own medicine. What you think guys?
I'm 33 years old, have 2 sons and I'm in loveless marriage. My life has been tough from my childhood. Separated parents, no root home. Currently I'm living in foreign country. Having difficulty to meet friends. Can you see anything useful for me in my chart?
I took the shrooms yesterday. It was small dose. I didn't expect too much but suddenly it hit me. Joy overtook my body. Happiness got into my bloodstream. I was in the nature back then. On my way home, everything looks brighter and wonderful. World shines, people seemed friendly. I got the energy and everything seems so funny. Then some thoughts came to me. About my life, about love about myself. I treated myself harsh. Letting myself suffer. Emotions and past ruled over my days. Maybe I didn't know how to really love, suddenly it hits me. My ego was sneaky, trying to survive and feed on misery I put myself into. No need for that. I can be happy. I already have happy life, I just need to let myself to really feel it and enjoy it. My kids, I looked at them with different eyes. I was able to enjoy everything. Their laugh, their fight their stories. My husband seems so lovely. Even my ex who was lingering on my mind from time to time... I wished him happiness and true love. My depression gone, my triggers washed away. I was able to look at the trees and sky and see only wonder. Microdosing is definitely a way to go.