u/Non-binary_prince

Monsplasty was performed 1/5 and 4/13 of this year, so technically six weeks postop. I feel like they took everything except what I was expecting them to take but since this is what I’m dealing with, I want the pouch gone. It’s not bad work, it’s just not what I asked for, and not something I can live with. I remember needing a lot of ED work after top surgery and that’s been necessary because my tummy and thighs are huge without my belly. It does fill out my underwear, but it also buries my dick and the cleft is very vulva-y from my perspective and triggering. I feel like we’re close but I also deeply regret getting referred for the monsplasty in the first place and miss my healthy body. I’ve never seen a monsplasty like mine either so I’m anxious to hear why the plan changed the morning of the operation and if she’ll be willing to fix it or if the surgeon is satisfied with the results since it was her goal not mine.

Still a lot of swelling, monsplasty incision isn’t cooperating but it is healing. Sutures are working their way out/disolving slowly. I’m not super happy with the mons, just like I’m not happy with the vnect, but I’m giving it time.

I am so freaking happy that the UL repair took this time, especially since my surgeon is leaving the hospital. I can pee into a water bottle, which is cool, but twice now, I have peed standing, fully clothed, outside, without getting a single drop on me. I’m not sure if it’s replicable or something I’ll be able to do consistently, but I’m practicing and as the swelling goes down, it gets better. I do find that my pee shoots straight out more than I’d like, but I can work on aim.
(Pic four showing how short my urethra actually is and yet…)

If I could have phallo without UL, my life would be so much easier. I was explaining to the nurse that I can’t know if I’ll need UL until the phallus is installed but it is very promising that I can pee better than I was hoping at this stage.

I’ve managed twice now to completely clear my clothes! Once in jeans and now this! (Ignore the dog, she’s just jealous she has to squat.)

This is why I had UL. Three dick surgeries because I wanted to be able to piss into Mountain Dew bottles. It has all lead up to this and it may just have been worth it. Not even a Gatorade bottle, yall, my urethra is so perfect I can go in an Evian bottle.

So, stage one eliminated a lot of my dysphoria. Stage two and the revision have been complicated, but they also really changed my body. And I will say that what I have is something I can work with, it’s just very different from what was there.

Me, to a friend: I hypothosized that taking nudes would make me feel better about my body—
Friend: That has never made me feel better about my body!
Me: Well you’re not a complete narcistist, are you?

I set up the tripod when I was doing my drain compliant modified shower and took some pics. …I’m starting to feel better about what I wound up with. I’m having a lot of feelings, but part of me is proud of what has been accomplished, possible. Even if it’s not what I had planned. Starting with a clothed pic tho

I still plan to get a photographer to take pictures of me when I’m fully recovered, but this is kinda encouraging in the meantime.

First, I am never going to be the ideal length to clear my fly. I’m not gifted. But I wanted to pee from my dick more than I wanted to pee standing in jeans. And holy crap has it been worth it. First round, I had a fistula, second stage the whole underside of my dick ripped open, this time it seems like everything is healed right. And I’m so relieved.

I am getting better at peeing through the leg of my shorts, working on a simple/dyi stp extension, I ordered a silicone meta extension prosthetic, and I can still use 16-25% of urinals regardless of clothes but somewhat depending on if I have the room to myself. Standing to pee is more than I was hoping for from meta; I was hoping to sit but have it come out my button meta instead of near my vagina.

Since stage one, I’ve been able to use a portable urinal, but stage two moved everything forward enough that I can shimmy my pants down while sitting in the drivers seat of my car and stick my junk in a urinal or Gatorade bottle quite comfortably.

Long road trip where I have to use a sketchy, deserted rest area? Filthy gas station restroom? Portapotty or park toilet hut? Stuck in traffic too long to find an open bathroom? No longer a problem! And the best one: gay bar with no stall in either bathroom? Doesn’t matter. I piss into a jug when I get there, before I leave, and if I have to I can slip back to my car. I can almost exist in society the way I want!

But the most euphoric and convenient part is that already, right now while I’m still swollen (honestly a lot less swollen now than when I filmed five days ago), I can put my dick INTO something to piss. When I look down while pissing, it’s shooting out the tip of my cock. I can pull myself out of my underwear and then tuck myself back when I’m done. In the car is great, but outside is fun too. Right now, if I pee into the urinal jug and dump it in the toilet/sink, I do that need toilet paper, of as much. If I’m at a urinal, I need a paper towel to dab off with still.

I can’t wait until I’m healed up to go camping so I can pee off a mountain. Then I gotta get out of SoCal and find some snow to write my name.

I just thought of this! …if I can put my dick into things to pee. Will I be able to put it into toys? Or, holy crap, consenting people?!

I had to have the drain replaced and the twilight anesthesia really messed with my head but it is draining much better now.

Swelling is decreasing very quickly, finally. First pic is barely 12 hours apart!

Urethra appears healed, urination is great. Did a void trail for the first time: the inject saline to your bladder through the foley catheter until you can’t hold it and then pull the tube. Gave me options but I just peed into a big cup.

Big emotions still (as in I’m scheduling therapy a lot and started an anti depressant, I think having so many anesthesia events so close together had an impact) but I am satisfied with the meta results right now although there are two places on my scrotum that I am hoping heal correctly and are still affected by swelling.

Also, just found out I can aim better than before the revision which several of yall said was likely, so thank you everyone who said so! But I am peeing on the floor in front of the toilet if I forget when sitting.

I had to have the drain replaced and the twilight anesthesia really messed with my head but it is draining much better now.

Swelling is decreasing very quickly, finally. First pic is barely 12 hours apart!

Urethra appears healed, urination is great. Did a void trail for the first time: the inject saline to your bladder through the foley catheter until you can’t hold it and then pull the tube. Gave me options but I just peed into a big cup.

Big emotions still (as in I’m scheduling therapy a lot and started an anti depressant, I think having so many anesthesia events so close together had an impact) but I am satisfied with the meta results right now although there are two places on my scrotum that I am hoping heal correctly and are still affected by swelling.

Also, just found out I can aim better than before the revision which several of yall said was likely, so thank you everyone who said so