u/North_Animator_4800

I joined aakash the oldest and one of the so called best branches in lucknow but Idk whether I should stay here or change or am I'm js overthinking. Need ya'lls opinion

Immediately after boards ended, me and my parents started searching ccg for 11th (I took pcm cuz I got like 89% in isce boards ts year and I don't really have a particular dream so I took math thinking I'll have all paths open and decided ro prep for jee since it's my dad's dream and even tho I'm not that intrested I don't hate the idea of it that much) I first got enrolled in their dummy program w my bsf but we both knew we weren't made for dummy so we quit and started going to school and shifted into the evening bach after 2-3 weeks. We couldn't understand much in ccg, like I felt like such an ungrateful brat like how I was wasting my parents money because i would barely understand shit there and just zone out. And since I couldn't understand anything I didn't self study as well. And my bsf who got 95% in boards, he got so annoyed cuz we both couldn't get anything even tho we had like 7-8 ppl in the batch so left the ccg but Idk if I should or not.

I understand maths there 70%? Chemistry, till past few weeks it was like less than 10% but slowly now its maybe 50%, and physics is still 0% since starting like I understand NOTHING AT ALL. I studied units and dimensions on my own since it was an easy chapter but he's completed kinematics and ik nothing abt it. I js scribble in class and copy the stupid notes. I feel like even tho the teachers are nice and kind they teach like how professors give lectures like colleges. Idk whether I should stay here or drop and join somewhere else cuz if I leave 80-90k rs will be gone. And I feel so bad wasting my dad's money we're a middle class family after all :(

Pls ya'lls advice and give some tips :(

Hey guys, I'm a 17F from a tier 2 city, currently in high school, pcm student. My parents want me to become an engineer (dad's obsessed with the "iitian" tag but I hate the thought of jee) they even enrolled me in a ccg paying almost 2 lakhs for 2 years and I don't understand a single thing a that stupid coaching I hate it. I have to study on my own cuz money won't be returned and ik how hard it was for my dad to afford it. (never let anyone join aakash, WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE) I dont hate engineering but ik I'll not clear jee. I'm an above avg student, top 10 of my class but ya'll know jee kids built diff. I've always wanted to become a pilot. idkw I've had this dream since class 6th. idk what's called "being passionate" abt it, but I really dream of being a pilot. I want to become a pilot. Whenever I think of a future, I can't help but think abt it only.

now the problem is my mum is a housewife and my dad earns like 9LPA almost like 70-80k a month and half his salary goes into me and my sibling's school fees, tuition, coaching fees, car loan, home loan, health insurance etc etc. I see that today, the NEW pilots only get jobs if they are from (and survive it) cadet pilot programs rest, normally u have to wait years to get a job. I'm willing to take a student loan and pay it by myself even if it takes years but I really don't wanna put pressure on my dad because he has worked hard a lot and I genuinely don't want him to struggle. I don't see a lot of collateral free student loans for the amount of monet required to become a pilot and I would rather die than put the home my dad bought with his hard earned money at stake. I don't know. I can't sleep at night thinking abt all this. My parents can take loans of 10-12 lakhs max for me but idk after that. I'm genuinely in a crisis. So please drop some advices if there's any way I can fulfill my dream without it being a nightmare for my family or should I just give up the idea of being a pilot :(

I'm sorry if it got long, but I will really, REALLY be grateful for some advices and if anyone of u guys become a pilot/is a student pilot from the same background as me I would love to know abt your stories :)