So lost
hey everyone, i never expected myself to be posting on reddit to share my thoughts/ seek advice. i’ve seen many posts this last week about feeling dumb as a brand new intern but here’s my take nonetheless because maybe the more people who post about their experience, the less others in my boat will feel alone? (let’s hope)
I was a below average med student with below average step 2 and shelf grades blah blah. I started intern year about a week ago and have found myself in a state of high stress because I feel like I don’t know how to help my patients in the most basic of ways. Getting messaged about blood sugars and insulin orders and blood pressures have me freaking out , and even though i’m a week in, i still haven’t been able to get a grip on these things. not sure if that’s normal. i’ve just been finding it hard to learn and re learn basic medicine when i’m working 12 hours and coming home to more orientation modules and trying to get settled into a new city. other interns in my class seem to have a better understanding about how to tackle patient problems without asking their senior and it boggles my mind how they know so many things already.
Long story short i’m struggling with understanding the hospital workflow, comparing myself to other interns, being alone in a new city, and forgetting so many basic concepts about medicine.
I know these are common feelings but I always convince myself that my situation is worse off than others’ situation because med school convinced me i’d always be starting out way below average.
Any thoughts, reality checks, and advice appreciated.