u/Objective_Pin_3940

i wanna say this but i dont know if i will be welcome, i get this feeling that God is way too righteous for me and hes just so good and i could never be like him.
i pray, i try hard, i do things with the intention of making him proud but i feel like its not enough, like im not welcome in his house. i genuinely pray and tell him about my day when he knows all of it, and i pray about struggles and my joy. i dont know how to feel about “im going to heaven”

I had these group of girls my class, I thought they were nice, I was so pathetic to think they would ever genuinely friend someone like me. I cried so often because of them, they genuinely killed my spark. That was 2 years ago, I feel shameful for still bringing that with me, like a burden I cant quite shake off. Now I see them in class still, they’re living their best lives and my life is probably similar to a bad day for them. It sucks that they have each-other, they are part of a worship team, and I feel jealous to see blatant favoritism from God. I thought God was fair, I’m pretty new to christianity even after being born one, I wanna hear people’s takes on this because a new perspective might help me.