I can picture things in my head so perfectly, but when I attempt to create it, IT SUCKS!!
Hello… Ive got diagnosed with NVLD when I was 15, Ive been drawing forever, and I always think to myself, why after all this time it takes me forever to improve, and I’m talking art-wise.
I find myself crying sometimes because I am listening to music by my favorite artist, trying to picture myself in their shoes, making something that I want to, make music that could have a following and sound great, and when I try to I can never seem to get it, even though its obvious for others.
Same thing with drawing. I’ve been stuck at an middle school art level. Sometimes, weirdly enough I would draw the way I want to, but my mind seems too complicated to keep it that way? IM REALLY NOT SURE. It just hurts so bad because I have so many ideas that I cant get it out there and Im almost 20 years old now. I want people to see my work, I want people to see it the way I want it to be, not some crappy version of it. Im not sure how to explain all this and I know its rambling almost, but I daydream everyday while listening to music thinking about what I can be in the future.
IM NOT ON PURPOSEFULLY PUTTING MYSELF DOWN, I REALLY WANT TO BE A GREAT ARTIST BUT THIS IS ALL HARD TO EXPLAIN!! (sort of vent but not really lmao?)