u/Ok-Band-1843

I am watching the FIFA world cup and as I watch the games I keep thinking I am not a man. Now given, I'm a relatively intelligent person and I realize that I'm not a cis man. I struggle to articulate these thoughts and feelings of watching these players and feeling shite about myself. I start thinking that I am a fraud. Or how silly I am to think that I can present masculine. And it then comes down to not having a penis. I make myself suffer. Why am I like thus?