u/Ok-Economist-4225 — reddlx

I'm still crazy from what I saw!

Writing this post like 20 minutes after evening practise but didn't expect this! The picture I tried to describe to gemini to generate what I saw, this is pretty close put the purple was more purple way less pink but gemini doesn't understand sometimes. So how it went.. usually room gets way darker (no exception today) and there shows occasional purple at random spots if I get patient. If I'm outside it is harder but inside I can get it faster. Usually they fade in and out quickly like 3 seconds but this time it covered my whole field of vision and they managed to stabilize and not disappear! It took me maybe 30 minutes to get this type of view It felt like? At that time I thought I could hold perfect silence for like a minute straight! But I got scared because I got crazy waves of lightheadedness and felt completely paralized almost not breathing and even when it scared me it didn't fade so I had to stand up and walk it out 😂. Besides today practise yesterday I woke up with water pouring out of my nose and a hot throat but that faded away quickly. The nose tho I thought at first it was cold but I feel very good and energetic and lighter all the time... How could that happen. But today at midday it subsided. The silence gets easier day by day but that is because I sit at home all day and force it. Actually now it doesn't feel like forcing it got a lot more relaxing or I actually enjoy it maybe. I also got a job interview at monday so I'm prepping myself so I could hold silence in terrain. Cannot catch the dialogue with my attention well while on walks. Long ass text I know

u/Ok-Economist-4225 — 7 days ago

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Daytime silence

I don't get to do much darkroom at our house, so i practise in the daytime. Usually outside I get to see more green puffs then purple and rarely some red also. These were one of the prettiest puffs I have seen outside, there were so many of them maybe 20 and they just stayed there not moving or changing shapes

There was a broom to keep the place clean but the leaves had so much texture and detail. And the mood is crazy! Forcing silence everytime I remember I feel high (literally) all day except mornings! Definitely better than smoking some

u/Ok-Economist-4225 — 11 days ago

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Warrior walk beginner experience

I wanted to share an experience I had yesterday during a 13km warrior walk. This time was different, because I lasted 1,5 h, not usual 30, 40 minutes.

From like a 5 minute mark I felt remarkably light as usual in the legs and also in the head. I couldn't completely shut down my internal dialogue for longer stretches of time but that has to do with playing and watching chess a lot recently. The annoyance of my brain analyzing positions most of the time is making me crazy because I had already have great silence throughout the day and now I have to stop playing chess :>. but well about an hour and 15 minutes into the walk, things got really weird. I suddenly realized that I could physically feel something pulling me forward from my lower body. It wasn't my legs pushing me and also it wasn't anything from behind it felt like a force dragging me from the front. As I focused my intent on the destination the pull continued, if I started analyzing my thought it stopped and was back to walking mechanically. Right there I decided to experiment. I spotted a road sign in the distance with peripheral vission and locked my intent onto it I think. I discovered that indescribable feeling randomly. Instantly, I felt a tug in my abdomen perhaps and a force dragging me toward it, forcing my body to move faster without any conscious muscle effort. I could also choose how fast it would pull me. I did this because I remember don juan saying that eyes project intent and now I see how it works :D. The second that signpost left my field of vision, the pulling sensation vanished. I immediately felt myself slow down, and I became aware that I was the one actively moving my body again. But then I tried it with another roadsign now simply just looking away rather than passing it and the pull didn't stop if I still was in silence with that weird focus on nothingness. If I focused on my final destination in that same way, the pulling force instantly locked back on.

Then I hit a kind of steep hill. Usually, I would still have to use some muscle even when I was doing warrior walk. This time, even though I naturally slowed down a bit, I felt absolutely no extra physical effort. My legs were fully automatic still. My breathing remained perfectly calm. Also, when I first noticed the pulling sensation and then lost it, it took me a while to find that anchor should I say again. I realized I couldn't force it back with my mind. I had to project my intent and only then, in a split second, the pull would suddenly lock back in. I feel like it was all a gift of intent because now I know the feeling of hooking intent that I cannot describe.

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u/Ok-Economist-4225 — 3 months ago