As an island girl from the Philippines, one would think I won’t have this kind of reaction to mosquito bites.
But nah, this is the 2nd time during summer that I get this type of reaction. 🥹🤦♀️
I wonder why??
I’m a home health PT and lately I’ve been feeling really conflicted about the culture of productivity in this field.
I originally came from the Philippines, where a lot of people can’t even afford Physical Therapy. Back home, patients were usually deeply grateful for any care or service we could provide because access itself was a privilege.
Coming to the US has honestly been emotionally jarring for me. Here, I’ve experienced getting yelled at for being slightly late because of traffic between patients, for discharging patients, or for not meeting certain patient expectations even when I’m trying my best. Pair that with the constant pressure for productivity, documentation, scheduling, and unrealistic quotas, and it’s been wearing me down mentally.
I went into PT because I genuinely wanted to help people, but sometimes it feels like the system pushes clinicians into survival mode instead of quality care.
I’ve heard people joke about doing “magic tricks” to make productivity work, and honestly it scares me how normalized some things seem to be. Sometimes I question whether I’m just too sensitive or if the environment is actually unhealthy.
I guess I’m wondering:
I still love patient care, but I don’t want to lose my integrity, compassion, or mental health trying to survive in this system.
Would really appreciate honest insight from other PTs, OTs, nurses, or home health workers.
at this point, i give up obsessing about it and just do what i think is right. eat well, exercise and not expect anything.
like most of the people here, i think i should be losing weight with the amount of exercise i do and eating healthy. but losing weight is so hard and take a long time.
i just give up.