mom had a stroke around a year ago - just want to get everything out really and maybe some advice
Hi, my mom had an stroke ( i think on the left side as her speech is effected) Im not sure about all the details as I was only 16 almost 17 when it happened ( im now 18)...
Its been a lot to go through and process, I now take care of my mom alongside my dad, she luckily can walk very short distances ( she has to use an wheelchair now) and can use her left arm but she cannot speak and use her right arm due to the stroke. Post stroke I thought I was doing ok "dealing with it" but a year on there has been very little improvement ( I understand improvement can take longer than a year) and I have been dwelling on things that I miss about my mom before the stroke, like her cooking or her driving me to college or just having a conversion with my mom. I don't know if I can call it grieve as my mom is still here but it feels like it. I feel selfish for missing my mom before her stroke as she is still here and happy for the most part. I also feel that no one can really relate to my situation as no one I know ( except my dad ) knows what it is like to go through this. Is this bad...
As for my education I am unsure if I should go to uni now as I am torn between wanting to move out and to see my options but my mom is also now on my mind as I feel that I have to decide between my future and caring for my mom..
Another aspect that I am slightly worried about is that strokes run on my moms side of the family and that I could potentially have an stroke one day and end up in a similar situation to my mom ( which I don't want).
For my mom's speech .. she can say some words like I love you or good morning but only if prompted.. I want to keep hoping that she will speak again properly but I doubt it. And as for her understanding I believe she can understand everything but she just really can't reply ( she only says one word ... no )
sorry if this doesn't really make sense - Angie