Feeling Incapable to do Lawyer Work
I’ve been a lawyer for four years now (I know, considered as newbie lawyer parin in the greater scheme of things) and have had no exposure sa litigation.
I’ve been wanting to do litigation but a lot of friends tell me that litigation work is too glorified. Mas madaming cons kesa sa pros.
However I can’t help but feel small compared to colleagues who have been exposed to litigation. It feels like I am missing a lot of techniques, know-hows and other lawyer stuff by not doing litigation and court work.
In my line of job, I do corporate, admin, compliance and tax. I feel lost sa unang administrative case na hawak ko. Like, literal di ko alam gagawin ko. I feel stuck. I’ve studied and watched youtube videos and read the pertinent rules but there are unwritten rules you can only learn when you do court practice. Hindi ako makaupo to do a deep dive because mayat-maya may ipapagawa.
At the end of the day, I feel overwhelmed, unproductive and incapable of handling cases to the point na ayoko na siyang i-handle altogether.
I feel slow and I also really feel that I am underdelivering as a lawyer. Nakakahiya.
This is not the same brain doing 12 hours of studying and grinding nung law school. Is this normal?
Hay, sana lahat may 300k per month kahit absent.