Meltdown over a misquito bite
64 F. I got out of the hospital three days ago, they put four stents in. Last night while sleeping I was bit by a misquito near my IV site, I spent 30 minutes trying to figure out why my arm was on fire, my vein was popped out, and wondering if I was dying. Then I spent a hour crying over it.
Im black and green bruised everywhere from needles, ekg stickers and whatnot. I feel like everything is out to get me, and very vulnerable. Im not sleeping well and think I'm still in shock over the whole ordeal. Just basically feeling very sorry for myself.
This was my second heart attack. The first one I had my husband to take care of me and didnt have much after effects, in fact I felt great and finally had energy. Not so with this one, my husband died and I'm by myself and I feel like I've been run over by a garbage truck. Im guessing I have "heart attack blues" with a twinge of ptsd. Just posting to clear my thoughts and to let someone know how miserable I feel. Im sure these feelings will pass soon enough.