u/OpportunityMurky361

When I do something embarrassing or shameful in my dreams, I feel too embarrassed to write it in my dream journal because I’m scared someone might read it and I’d be humiliated. I also have this strange fear that if I suddenly disappeared one day or died under mysterious circumstances, people would look through my phone and, because of my dream journal, accuse me of witchcraft or something else and spread lies saying I died while doing bad things.

In my country, there was a woman who did Tarot readings on Instagram. She went missing while hiking in the woods, and when she was found, she had died from hypothermia. After that, people harassed her friends and family by saying things like “she was a witch who went into the forest to perform rituals and died.” It got so bad that her father had to go on a livestream crying and saying, “My daughter was not a witch.”

Ever since then, I’ve been thinking about my own family and wondering if people would talk about me like that too. Do you think I'm exaggerating?

When I have a dream, I do reality checks and realize that I’m dreaming, but after that I can never remember what I did next. Maybe the lucidity even ends afterward. This happens frequently, but I still haven’t been able to figure out how to fix it.

Because I couldn’t fall back asleep after WBTB + SSILD, I bought a supplement that is said to help with falling asleep, containing 300 mg St. John’s Wort Extract, 200 mg Sour Cherry Fruit Extract, 100 mg Valerian Root Extract, 100 mg Passionflower Extract, and 100 mg Hops Extract. I’ve been using it for a while and it does help me fall asleep, but ever since I started using it, I haven’t had any lucid dreams at all. Normally, when I only did WBTB + SSILD, I would have lucid dreams on at least two out of five nights.