Feeling anxious and embarrassed
I started my steno journey 2 months ago but I still haven’t told anyone exactly what I’m doing - they just know I’ve been “studying”. I wanted to keep it to myself at first because I wasn’t sure if it would work out, and honestly if I had a choice I would just not say anything until I got out of school lol but that’s not possible for me.
I don’t know how to stop feeling embarrassed about what I’m doing. Probably because I’m investing all this time, effort, and money into something I’m not even sure will work out in the end. I feel like if I start telling people, I just have to bring up the high dropout rate and that most people take 2-5 years to finish, so I can use that as an excuse for if I fail or don’t get there within 2 years.
I’m also very bad at explaining things in general so I’m anxious about people asking me about stenography/court reporting, especially if they bring up AI. I’m not confident enough to talk about those things so I avoid telling people about what I’m doing. I feel like I need to memorize a list of things to say for if I freeze up.
How do I stop feeling like this?