Tips on how to distract my bad patience of wanting results?
I'm early 40s, 5'4-5'5ish and the week after Easter my scale suddenly showed 117kg (258lbs) which was a shock. I've always been big, only exception was a short while at 19 when I lost a lot of wight due to my living situation at the time (a year abroad). Once I returned, it quickly creeped up again. I've tried likely any diet that exists with no results, about 2 years ago a doc put me on fatblockers which helped some however caused other issues so I stopped.
Most efforts have quickly fallen due to me hating logging and tracking, to me getting tired of being constantly hungry and cranky with barely no results, attempts to workout disrupted my other health issues or old injuries acting up. This time, I've tried to rethink everything so it's a smart start. First weeks, I was very focused on going slow and just adjusting routines. I had a trip end of month, pms expected around the same time or just before, and had decided I take full focus after the trip. Those first 2-3 weeks I went from that horrible 117 shock to morning weights at 113-115. The 113 was really stubborn and I only broke from it last weekend, finally going to 112s and this morning 111,8 despite my cycle stocking up on water and bloating. Now in May, I've added to the workouts,I try to go the gym each night, because it's become a mental thing - I struggle with sleep and especially going to bed. Tiring myself out, coming home to undress,shower,grab little post-workout snack and then sleep is my new routine and I actually sleep through the night. I have a quite social life and am often at local bars (also work part-time in one), and I've been known to enjoy a few glasses of red wine or a few beers some nights a week - I've now switched to white wine with soda, max "one normal" glass on one night (so wine amount compares to one big glass wine). My eating is very protein heavy and focused on keeping a daily deficit of around 1000, key issue has been to get my eating schedule on track. One day a week is my soft,rest day.
I feel different. Several weeks of better sleep, the reduction of alcohol, eating on track, workouts all make me feel much better and healthier. But it doesn't show! I'm ADHDer and of course dopamine driven and I know it takes time for visual changes, but it's so frustrating that all the hard work isn't showing off yet. I still look like the old grumpy fat girl.
What motivates/motivated you guys to just keep pushing on?