What to do if I don't feel disconnected with sikhi and feel like giving up?
Ive been busy with school, exams are coming up . I never feel like praying or just going to the gurudwara. Like every morning i remember Waheguru and mutter a small prayer for guru ji to be with me and yeah but like i don't pray and the more i try to it makes me almost like feel even more disconnected. I've been feeling so disconnected even when i listen to shabad-kirtan its like it all goes in through one ear and out the other. also things like i pray AND try my best to get good grades i end up not getting the grade I wanted and I know guru ji cant magically make my grade better but even with other things like family problems and mental health it feels like I'm trapped and guru ji isn't helping me. leaving all of this to the side, I WANT to live a sikh lifestyle, there are moments i truly feel pure love for Waheguru but recently I've just havent been feeling it and i don't know how to guide my mind. My heart loves Waheguru but my mind cannot comprehend it. my days are like a constant loop that im stuck in and im tired of it all. I have no one who understands me and I wish waheguru would.